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April 01 2011
April 01 2011

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“All of you, is more than enough for all of me for
every thirst and every need – you satisfy me with
your love and all I have in you is more than enough.”


As I sat in church one Sunday, I was listening to the Pastor’s sermon. He had developed a theme with corresponding scriptures and compelling examples, but sometimes it isn’t the overall theme that grabs you and gets your attention. For me this Sunday, it was his example of a study that addressed why children, who grew up in the church, chose to leave the church once they had a choice. And it quickly shook me. The two reasons are this: 1) Judging Parents and 2) Hypocritical parents.  

Prefacing this, I must explain that I am a mother to twin four year olds. So, that in itself brings me relief because they are so darn young and how much damage could I have possibly caused in those four years? Understand that I am not a monster or a misfit mother. However, nothing else I have ever done in this world has made me feel so incompetent than being a mother. I am more aware today of my imperfections than ever before. In contrast to who I thought I was in my 20s–perfect and equipped with all the answers–I am now 40, flawed and full of questions.  

So, as the Pastor moved on through his sermon, I was stuck on how I could strive to not be that judgmental parent, nor have my children perceive me as a hypocrite. My mind shifts back to when I was young teenager in the church and, more importantly, my relationship with my mother. I remember once accusing my mother to her face that she was a hypocrite. At the time I thought it was a very brave and honest thing to do. In reflection it was very disrespectful and dead wrong. I was a teenager trying to reconcile my mother’s public praise of my musical accomplishments and her private criticism of my abilities. And what I failed to understand was that she was very proud of what I had accomplished, yet she also knew that I had the ability to do much more.

Upon that memory alone I could feel the doom settle in like a storm cloud. For a moment, I nearly regretted all the character development that had gone on in my life over the 17 years before the incident with my mother. I have since cast off striving towards perfection for the pursuit of maturity and stopped being teacher and become teachable. All of these things made me so vulnerable to the eventual revelation of hypocrisy. The future chances are high that I will change my mind from time to time and, in learning, I may even shift course.  

Suddenly, my mind was drawn back to the Pastor as he brought his sermon to a close. That was my cue, in a few short moments, that I would have to lead the congregation in our sending song. As I reigned my thoughts back in and walked towards the front of the church, my eyes were drawn to words on the screen: “All of you, is more than enough for all of me for every thirst and every need – you satisfy me with your love and all I have in you is more than enough.” At that moment, I wanted to believe those words with all my heart; I needed to believe it. As the song progressed and the words “You’re my supply” came ringing through the congregation, I knew I could rest in knowing that God was all I needed to help me as a mother. He has been “Enough” for me as I stumble through parenting and “Enough” for my children as they grow up and navigate their faith.  “More than all I want, More than all I need, you (Lord) are more than enough for me.”

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